Look What I Have

This is the German edition of My Heart and Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga.

I just loved this book sooooo much that when presented the opportunity to get a German edition of it, I had to take advantage. 

Read it! 

Synopsis (via goodreads):

Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.

There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner. 

Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince

10 Reasons Why I Loved Tiger Lily by Jodi Lynn Anderson

Tiger Lily by Jodi Lynn Anderson

1. It's a retelling of Peter Pan (which I've always loved)
2. It's told from Tink's persective
3. You learn so much more than you thought you ever would've
4. Tik Tok
5. First love
6. I kept reading even though I didn't like it all that much, it paid off
7. Feels
8. Smee, Mareyn, Phillip
9. Oh, that ending
10. Never aging

10 Reasons Why I Loved The Beginning of Everything by Robyn Schneider

The Beginning of Everything by Robyn Schneider

1. Ezra (Yes, Ezra!) plays tennis
2. He's smart
3. A male lead
4. Debate team
5. The strangest few chapters I've read in a long time
6. Ah, the end
7. His dog..
8. Morse code flashlights
9. The Great Gatsby
10. The end felt good

My Analysis (Not Really) of Fandoms

I think that all you have to do to be a part of a fandom is to like the book, simple as that. But, I also believe that there are different levels of fandom(hood?) and which levels are truly superior to others. To be clear, this is mostly about book fandoms, sorry, there isn't much else in my life.

0.5. There is a movie: you are an untouchable (if we are comparing this to the Indian caste system). The only reason you are reading the book is because there is a movie, and while reading it you weren't drooling over the pages. Or showing any sign of true love for it. You know if you are a part of this group, you just know because when other people talk about that book you just roll your eyes.

1. A Fan: this is the lowest cast in a fandom. You like the book, you enjoyed it, you are anticipating the sequel, but you aren't going to kill for the first copy. When the movie comes out you aren't going to the premier, you're going to the opening day, weekend, or when it becomes cheap showing. There is nothing wrong with just being a fan of a book, but when you talk to others that are at a higher level caste for that particular series, they will look down on you.

2. A Follower: this is the group of people who check to see the release date or the sequels, movies, and when the DVD comes out, but they would choose their friends sleepover the premier. You probably own all the books, and might buy the DVD when it comes out, but you find other things in life. Again, there is nothing wrong with being in this group of people, some people just like some books more than others.

3. A Fangirl(or boy): this is sometimes hard to distinguish between A Fanatic. You do your best to go to the premier, you search for times and places to meet the author and actors, you do absolutely everything you can to support the movie, but sometimes things just don't work out. Even at this stage of fandom, people may consider you a little bit crazy, but that's good. I promise.

4,5. A Fanatic: there are two types, neither of which are really all that much higher on the caste.

       Just Found Out Fan: it's okay, sometimes it takes buzz to hear about something. I am a fanatic over The Maze Runner, but it took the movie for me to find out (sort of...it's complicated). You know you are at this stage when you dress up as characters Halloween, and eventually realize that it is the end all be all to life. The only reason this is second to highest to those that were original fans of the book is because they will think that you are inferior, when really they should be happy to find another person to share their love with. Right?

       Original Fan: you pre-ordered the book the moment you saw the cover. And, when you heard about the movie coming out you nearly died. This has been the END ALL BE ALL to your life for quite a while, and you consider yourself at the top of the caste. I'm putting you here because you've had to be tortured with waiting longer than all the others, so...this is your gift.

10 Reasons Why I loved Positive by Paige Rawl and Ali Benjamin

Positive by Paige Rawl and Ali Benjamin

1. It's her life (Paige Rawls)

2. She wasn't always positive

3. Her thoughts are very quotable

4. When you are reading the book you think wow, I'm glad this never happened to me and then you          realize that it actually happened to her

5. I cried for a moment, that never happens

6. Paige Rawl didn't think that being HIV positive was a big deal for a while, until she told her best         friend

7. I've met her, and she is amazing (only 20!)

8. She has a very rich life, and one that you should look up to

9. She's from the Midwest

10. She wants to help find a cure, or treatment, or vaccination for HIV by getting into that field

The Maze Runner Movie Review

Okay, so I must first say this- Thomas, Newt, and Minho: The Golden Trio. Second, it is an amazing adaptation, so if you were having any doubts about if you should see it or not, just go and see it; there will be no regrets. Thirdly, it was just amazing.

The way that this movie was amazing was amazing in the same way that if i stay was amazing, it was extremely true to the idea. With Divergent I feel like they were true to scenes, but weren't true to the book and it's ideas; therefore, it wasn't nearly as good of an adaptation. Like if i stay, The Maze Runner was true to the idea and feels of it, and just had scenes changed, left out, or added (all of which were fine, or good). The Fault in Our Stars was a good adaptation because of how it was almost exactly in line with all of the scenes, and was extremely true to the feels; I didn't like to the book but that adaptation was perfect.

I recommend this to fans of Divergent, The Hunger Games, Shatter Me, and almost all dystopias/ thrillers.

True Cross Country Runners

10 Reasons Why I Loved The Maze Runner by James Dashner

The Maze Runner by James Dashner

1. Figuring out a maze
2. Minho, Newt, and Thomas
3. Runners
4. Grievers (because they scare me so much)
5. Frypan's cooking sounds delicious
6. Being Stung/ The Changing
7. Maps
8. Chuck being the best friend ever, even after Thomas was sort of a jerk to him
9. A functioning society...sort of
10. The Box

(11. Newt's British accent
 12. Gally being such a jerk
 13. The names
 14. Ivy Vines
 15. Being attacked in the woods)

10 Reasons Why I Loved Falling Into Place

Falling Into Place by Amy Zhang

1. I love the name Liz
2. Amy Zhang is from Wisconsin
3. There are tough issues confronted but not so much that it was an after school special
4. Liz isn't nice
5. There is drinking and swearing, but it isn't encouraged
6. Jake is a cliche
7. Silence
8. No one notices all of the mistakes she has made, and she never gets in trouble
9.  Her father
10. Crying in the rain

10 Reasons Why I Love Before I Fall

before i fall by Lauren Oliver
(No, I did not forget to capitalize)

1. You don't love her
2. 7 times is just the correct number of times to relive your death
3. She is a bully, and she is friends with all bully
4. Roses
5. Those three words just before she dies
6. Saving Juliette's life
7. Clothing
8. Hazelnut coffee
9. The woods behind her house
10. Breaking up with her gross boyfriend

10 Reasons Why I Love 17 First Kisses

17 First Kisses by Rachel Allen

1. Soccer
2. Her best friend is male
3. She's got 3 female friends
4. Tampon in the nose
5. Luke turning out to be a jerk (spoiler, sorry)
6. Redneck Riviera (it just sounds so terrible)
7. The way that it is a chapter and then a story about one of her kisses
8. Sam used to be fat but is now in shape (I just think it gives us all hope)
9. Timothy (it's sad, but it added depth)
10. A photographer for a mom

10 Reasons Why I Love Delirium

Delirium by Lauren Oliver

1. Lena runs
2. Meeting Alex at sunset, sort of
3. Pairing (it's just weird)
4. Partying is illegal
5. Their house that they love
6. The messed up family of Lena's
7. Invalids
8. Sheep
9. The cure (it just seems terrible)
10. Escaping (sorry, spoiler)

10 Reasons Why I love The Hunger Games

The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins

1. Archery
2. Survival
3. Katniss being awesome
4. Tracker jackers
5. Foxface
6. Thresh being nice to Katniss after she was nice to Rue
7. Cato being so evil
8. The capital
9. Training for it sounds so cool
10. Effie

10 Reasons Why I Love Shatter Me

Shatter Me by Tahehreh Mafi

1. Crossing out words and sentences
2. (Spolier) Adam being from Juliette's childhood
3. Notebook
4. A touch of death, it's just cool
5. Cold showers (it just makes you shiver)
6. Warner just being so evil
7. Radioactive zone
8. Fighting in a dress
9. Adam and her in that steamy shower
10. Not knowing how to drive

10 Reasons Why I Love if i stay

if i stay by Gayle Forman
(No, the words are not capitalized)

1. Cello!
2. I've met Gayle Forman an Chloe Grace Moretz
3. The Flashback way it was written
4. Adam
5. How in the entire book you didn't know what she was going to choose until the very end
6. Gran and Gramps
7. Kim's coffee
8. Two types of people in this world
9. Rocker family
10. My deep love of hospitals (Yes, I do know this is messed up and weird)

10 Reasons Why I Love Panic

Panic by Lauren Oliver

1. It's written in third person but feels like first person, which I kind of like
2. The crappy town that it takes place in
3. Panic sounds crazy awesome
4. Running across the interstate
5. Heather's little sister
6. Tigers
7. Parent problems
8. FIRE
9. Joust
10. The lines of swearing by the old, grumpy guy

10 Reasons Why I love Divergent

Divergent by Veronica Roth

1. Tris is really awesome when she kicks ass
2. Five factions actually sound really cool
3. You would only go to school and be a child until 16, then you're on your own
4. Fear landscapes sound terrifying, but also oddly awesome
5. Learning how to throw knives
6. You either hate characters or you love them, most of the time
7. Beating the bad guys
8. The idea of being divergent
9. Not having to choose your own clothing in Abnegation
10. Zip lining threw Chicago (loved you in this scene V. Roth)

10 Reasons Why I love The Chocolate War

The Chocolate War by Robert Cormier

1. It's old and I like older things
2. It's different because it is written in 3rd person
3. The movie had Adam Baldwin in it, and he is awesome
4. You go in not expecting much, but you come out with a huge book hangover
5. You hate a lot of the characters, but at the same time love them for their intelligence, power, or stubbornness
6. The Goober loves running
7. You have to read it a million times because of how much you love it, and when you do re read it, it is still A-M-A-Z-I-N-G
8. Sub-consciously- or consciously-, you root for the bad guys
9. Do I dare disturb the universe?
10. After reading the second book or watching the movie you feel the urge to re read it until all memory of those things are gone